Tag: Mental Health
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If I want free, I must forgive
It is hard to need someone who is gone. Need someone who was never there. Either by reason of their own or a power greater, couldn’t be there as you needed them to be. Being angry, releasing the guilt, and freeing myself from my mother includes reconizing how much I…
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never looking at him again
It began with conversations at school. I had a few friends, and I began to speak blasé about certain truths. We were all burdened. And though likely unhealthy, we were all desperate for understanding. Trauma, and weighted stories were shared, like reflections on the weather. I spoke of my mother.…
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I want to live another way.
Once you’ve broken a habit, it can be hard to come back. I’m not disappointed, nor do I think anyone is. But when I count the days it’s been since I posted, it’s harder to come back. But I am. There’s more work to do, more to clear from my…
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If there is no I, I’ll find peace with that as well
As of recent, I’ve been thinking a lot about self. When bad things happen, I often lose myself. I am preoccupied by fear. Too burdened by survival to live. But once I begin to slow, once I regain control, another concern takes hold. A fear of self. The weight of…